First of all, I gained weight this week.
I’ve been in a whirlwind for the last month. I haven’t done too many personal posts lately, mostly because it’s really hard to put into words how I’m feeling. But I’ll try. I like lists, so here goes:
What I Know Now
1) Divorce sucks. People get hurt and things get hard. But happiness, or even the hope of happiness, is worth the risk. I’m sorry that my marriage ended, but I’m not sorry that I’m happier now. I deserve happiness. And if you’re reading this and you’re in a shitty situation, you deserve happiness too. If you are looking around thinking “I guess this is the best it’s ever going to be” and aren’t really happy, don’t settle. Because the feeling you should be having is “How did I ever live a day in my life not being this happy?”. That’s how I’ve been ever since Matt came into my life.
2) It is completely possible to go from being an eternal pessimist
3) Love is a powerful, amazing, wonderful thing. And I’m head over heels in it.